AGE 26

SO I MARRY MICHAEL. I AM DAZZLED BY HIS WORLDLINESS AND INTELLIGENT CONVERSATION AND CULTURED VOICE AND TAILORED SUITS AND BOYISH BEAUTY. I AM IMPRESSED BY HOW HE COMMANDS ATTENTION, EFFORTLESSY, WITHOUT SELF-CONSCIOUSNESS. WHEN HE SPEAKS, EVERYONE SITS UP AND LISTENS. HE HAS AN AIR OF AUTHORITY. I AM NOT USED TO THIS IN ONE SO YOUNG. OF COURSE ,MY OLD MEN HAD IT TOO. BUT HE REPRESENTS YOUTH AS WELL AS SUCCESS. I LIKE THE CONFIDENCE. AND HE IS A SENSITIVE AND FORCEFUL LOVER. THE SEX BETWEEN IS UNFAILINGLY POTENT. THIS WAS NOT TRUE OF THE OLDER MEN. EXCEPT FOR JAMES. I TRY NOT TO THINK OF JAMES. BUT DEEP INSIDE ME I HAVE A SENSE OF HAVING CHEATED MYSELF OUT OF SPENDING THE REST OF MY DAYS ON EARTH WITH THE TRUE LOVE OF MY LIFE.

WE HONEYMOON IN THE SOUTH OF FRANCE, LUXARY HOTELS ALONG THE COAST AND DRIVE MILES OFF THE ROUTE, SINCE MICHAEL IS A BON VIVEUR, TO TRACK DOWN WORLD-FAMOUS RESTAURANTS ON THE MICHELIN GUIDE, BEST FOOD LISTS. I WOULD LOVE TO SAY I ENJOYED THIS , I WOULD NOW, I KNOW IT. BUT I MUST HAVE ALREADY BECOME PREGNANT IN THE EARLIEST DAYS OR NIGHTS OF OUR HONEYMOON, OR ELSE ID CONTRACTED A STOMACH BUG ALONG THE WAY. I BECAME VIOLENTLY ILL, VOMITTING EVERYTHING IMMEDIATLEY IT PASSED INTO MY SYSTEM. I LOST A STONE IN WEIGHT. BUT THE SCENERY WAS SUPERB, I SAW IMPRSSIONIST PAINTINGS EVERYWHERE I LOOKED, THE LIGHT INCANDESCENT, ENTHRALLING. UNTIL WE ARRIVED IN GERMANY AND THE GRANDIOSE HOUSE WE WERE TO LOVE IN, WHICH REMINDED ME OF THE WORST OF SNAZZY SUBURBIA. THE SEXUAL SIDE OF THE HONEYMOON WAS HEAVEN.

SARAH BORN